A PLACE FOR ME TO FIGURE IT OUT.
The meaning of life. Part 1.
Here is the big overwhelming question that has been asked, pondered, and answered for centuries upon centuries:
"What is the meaning of life?"
What does is mean? It means everything, all of existence. Why life? to exist and existence just is.
The very fact of our race spending our time and our ability to question life is part of the meaning of life itself. Perhaps the only way to answer the question is to open your mind and experience existence. It we spend all of our lives on the questions, then how will we ever receive the answers? Questioning life is a good thing because questioning means noticing and noticing is the first step to an open mind. An open mind will allow you to experience existence and therefore life.
We spend our lives in opposition to life and that renders us blind to life. Why is the human race so different from any other species? We become stuck on the questions and then the world around us becomes obstructed and hazy. Opposition to life comes in so many beautiful and skillful forms: defying gravity, planes, cars, spacecraft, anti-gravity machines, wrinkle cream; measuring time and space of which there are no measurable limits; trying to escape death although death is a vital part of the reproduction of life; placing boundaries and walls in impermanent space with impermanent materials, and then becoming furious when they collapse and deteriorate, asking, "why?"; holding on to everything so tightly when all we need is to let go and allow the past be the past and the moment to evolve into the future as is will whether or not we accept that truth. We oppose change and movement, which are in the very essence of existence and of life. We even get mad when the weather changes from one season to the next, but without the changing seasons it would not be life.
To Be Born
The world is full of guesses and superstitions, but I believe in a universal truth. Religions say that each of us is born with a purpose and each of us as individuals. Some people have looked to the stars and unearthly heavens as means of explaining why we are each so different. We live on a scale of time, which we have created for ourselves, trying to measure and organize the unexplained details of life. Perhaps we cannot understand. We cannot know and it is only in the acceptance of that wherein we find enlightenment and peace.
The Bible says, “In the beginning…” and that the earth and the heavens were created, and with them time and conscience. It says that the creator knows all. It could ne that the creator knows all because it does not exist within our conceptualizing, but instead everything is only the present, including all of time itself. We each were born from the universe, from existence, in a moment where everything was just so and as such as it will never be again. There is not past. There is no future. There is only the illusion that this moment is moving into the next just as our brains conceive of what our eyes capture like rolling film.
So what is this moment? You cannot place a pin on a timeline for even infinity does not exist. This moment is already gone for by the time we realize it is happening is has already past because our brains don’t function or conceive at the same speed as existence. There are no pause or stop buttons in life. All we can do is notice and do our very best to experience. Life is a constant movement that waits for no thing, not even our minds. If the whole world could only notice, we would not recognize the lives we live. As creations of the universe we are naturals at being blind to the very thing we are born of, hiding in our minds and our fabrications, which we consider to be life. But even life itself is so vast that we are unable to fully know and experience it, we have too much conscience for that.
Where has the life gone from community and connections between people?
There is a group of people in my living room at this very moment sitting around looking at Facebook photos trying to 'set-up' my roommate with someone. Now, once upon a time people would set their friends up on blind dates--whatever-- but now they are looking at photos and calling out everything that is wrong with this person or that person whom they will probably never even meet. I have prejudices and judgements like every other human being, its natural to an extent even, but that is some negative karma being thrown out into the universe. Some of these people are the same who place all of their energy into trying to fit in instead of being themselves, or are those who simply don't notice things. It's all a waste of energy and time, both of which we are all limited by, might I remind the world. So what is the point? Why spend all of this life judging other people for their lives while you sit on your ass all day getting fatter and more discontent by the second of passing time.
Yesterday, my roommate asked, "Don't you just wish you could fast-forward a couple of years?"
I said no, because in the next moment I could be dead. In fact, the next moment doesn't exist, just like the past doesn't exist, so why would want to fast-forward, when you would be missing out on everything between now and then? You want to skip this moment and get to the next but it will always just be this moment, because we have nothing else. What makes you think that skipping forward will make you any more content? If you're unhappy with your moment than do something about it, right now.
So now I have had my own fair share of shit-talk and judgement as I sit here listening to Amy Winehouse and calling out people for not connecting with people face to face, although they're in there connecting with each other and I'm here sitting on my computer all by myself. Hypocrisy is an amazing thing. Go us.